Emotional Stress/Update(s)

         This past week or so, I've been under a great deal of emotional stress. I find myself in this type of situation once or twice a year, and I get really distant, and almost just want to shut down completely. However, when we get to points like this, a lot of times it's caused by storing emotions inside for a long period of time, letting things build up and add on, and our bodies and our minds are telling us we need a break. 

       For me, this means that I'm taking a break from the things and negative emotions that I'm feeling, and really just focusing on myself. The one thing that always gets me motivated and makes me feel renewed, is working out and focusing on losing more weight. Whether it be walking/running, or doing an intense training session, exercising ALWAYS clears my head and makes me feel at least somewhat better.

        With that being said, I am starting a 30-Day Crossfit Challenge tomorrow, October 28th. I am extremely excited about this (almost too much!) and I will be posting many more updates, and weekly blogs about how I am doing with that. I will also be sharing more quotes, stories and tips along the way. 

To start me off:

"No matter how slow you go, you're still lapping everybody on the couch!" 

Prayers&Positivity 

Becka

Thank You❤

         All of us have those occasional nights where we think about about our lives. For me, as I'm reminiscing my past, and the events that forever changed my life, I think of the people that were there for me. A lot of people back away from scary situations, or they don't know what to say or do, therefore, they don't say or do anything. Being someone's rock can be challenging, it is not easy by any means. In certain situations, I often say that the person going through the difficulty, and the one supporting that person, struggle the same. You may think that sounds crazy, but here's why: no doubt, the person dealing with a loss, a health issue, etc. has a lot to be emotional about, worried about, and scared about. However, often times they do have support. The person who is trying to be there for the victim of the situation is dealing with the inner battle of "am I doing enough for them?", the roller coaster of emotions, and in my experiences, they are the ones other people come to for knowledge of what is going on. The support doesn't have support, and is trying to be strong enough for two people.

         With this being said, I want to take the time to Thank all of the people that have been there for me through any or all of the tragedies I've faced thus far in my life. I genuinely, from the bottom of my heart Love and appreciate all of you so much. There is no question, I would not be here without you.

          To the ones who became like second Mothers to me, Thank you. You all have had a tremendous influence in my life, and even though I lost my Mom, I gained 3 and I love you all so, so much.

         To the ones that became like family to me, Thank you. Blood does not make you family, and this could not be more true for me. I love you all like family and nothing will ever change that.

         To the ones who were by my side through two of the hardest situations I've been in, both 9 years ago, and 5 months ago, Thank you. I honestly would not have been able to do it without any of you. I have tried to put myself in all of your shoes and I think about what I would have done, had it been the other way around, and your strength for me has helped me more than you realize. The places to sleep at night, the funny stories to lift me up and laugh, and the safeness I felt with you does not go one day without being appreciated. I Love you all more than you will ever know. 

         To the ones who inspire me on a daily basis, Thank you. You've shown me that there is so much to be happy, and thankful for. Being surrounded by you motivates me to be my best self. You are all so Amazing.

        To the ones who have helped me become who I am today, and who are always looking out for me, Thank you. I don't think I would be here today without you. You guys have made me realize so much about myself and my potential, and that only inspires me every single day to be better than I was yesterday. You have helped me to stay motivated to reach my goals, and have said "I am proud of you" when I do. You've shown me what is possible, and that you believe in me, and for that, I will always be grateful. I love you guys so much!

          And last, but certainly not least, to my Dad and my Guardian Angel, my Mom, I Love you two more than anything in this world. I've learned so much from both of you. Life is short, so don't be too afraid to try new things, to chase your dreams, and to live life to the fullest. Mom, Thank you for always watching down on me and protecting me, thank you for being the best Mom in the entire world to Josh and I. I would give ANYTHING to see your Beautiful face again, and I will someday. I Love you so much❤ Dad, Thank you for always being there for me. Through thick and thin, and other people coming and going, you have been a constant in my life, and I appreciate that more than anything. You are the STRONGEST person I know, and it only makes me stronger. You inspire me every day. I Love you more than life itself and I mean that whole heartedly. 

     You all mean the world to me, and I am so blessed to have/have had you in my life. You guys are the best of the best, and I Love you all more than I think you could possibly know. Once again, Thank You❤ 

Love,

Becka

            

The Biggest Loser

       There was a comment made during a commercial for The Biggest Loser today. "Why would you want to show America how ridiculously fat you are?!" This really upset me. As someone who has struggled with my weight my entire life, I commend every contestant that does go on the show. How many people sit on their couch, just WATCHING The Biggest Loser? A heck of a lot more than the Biggest Loser contestants. The people that send videos into the show genuinely want to lose weight. They are willing to take the viewers on their weight loss journey with them, no matter how heavy they start. That alone is inspiring to me. They put in HOURS of hard work. They are real people, with real health concerns, that want to change their lives. 

         I've watched probably 4 or 5 seasons of The Biggest Loser, and the contestants usually are very insecure about how heavy they are. There's always the two or three that are labeled the heaviest on the ranch, and I'm sure that is not an easy thing to deal with; especially when you are surrounded by people with the same issue. No one likes the weigh-ins, where the men have to be shirtless and the women are in sports bras. They don't do it to show America "how fat they are.", they do it to show America that if you're struggling with obesity, you can overcome it, too. 

          Yes, it's a reality show. I get it. But this is probably one of the most REALISTIC reality shows because these people are forever changing their lives, AND inspiring millions every step of the way. They have trainers, and set schedules, but the contestants are doing ALL of the work. You can have a doctor or a trainer consistently tell you to do something, but they can't do it for you.

           I'm very fortunate that growing up, I was never really bullied for being overweight, but I am extremely defensive over these things because I do know how difficult it is to lose weight.  

       I believe that if you don't know, you shouldn't talk. If you watch the show and it's just not your cup of tea, it doesn't pertain to you, etc. that's fine. That's your opinion, and you are fully entitled to it. However, if you haven't seen the show, you don't know anything about the struggle of being overweight, I don't think you have room to make ignorant comments.